Growing Up - Whatever thats supposed to mean.

In a few weeks I will be turning 21.
It's such a 'big' birthday with so many ooohs and arrrs about it, but it's 21... not even a round number. The only thing that I can think of that I can do any different is drink in America and get cheaper car insurance. Well hold me down.

Maybe if my current situation was different at the moment I would look forward to it more, maybe say I had a career, that I loved, and money in the bank, maybe if I was renting and had big things that belonged to me and maybe if I had a the independence and responsibility that I say I want maybe I'd look forward to becoming a proper adult. But for now all I know is I have no money, a huge huge amount of student debt, no job, no car and as much as I am fortunate in the fact that I don't actually mind living at home I have no space thats actually mine.

Now I know I say all that crap about independence and responsibilty but I really do want it. I know that I'll probably regret that when I have 5 little uns' running around my feet...

"See, see you said you wanted this! Can you remember? Hmmm hmm? Well now you have responsilibity don't you? And Billy's got chicken pots, deal with it."

Arr, I hear that in the voice of my Mother. So no kids now, or in the next 5 years + but I do want to be able to get a job, any at the moment but ideally one that I love, that I can work my way up, one that I can put my all into because I'm just that darn passionate about it and I want to think 'hey, I'm doing good, I'm grown up...' - STOP - ok actually scrap that I don't want to be grown grown up, I still want a life.

So now as my 21st birthday approaches I declare that I will sort myself out, try harder (if thats possible) to get a job, volunteer and get up before noon - now that is probably going to be the hardest part of this deal with myself.

Motivation... I think I can see what my next blog will be about!

He rocks in the treetop all day long...

26th June 2009 - An pretty average day for me, arose (late), discovered the dog had pee'd on the cushions, read a book (me, not the dog), went for a family meal to celebrate my Brother in Law to be's birthday, home, family guy, checked facebook.... what? eh?





So after seeing loads of status' updates across my rather boring facebook I asked my sister if it was true, to which she replied with "what? eh?". It's just not believable, I told my Mum, who was in bed (sorry Mum). The conversation went like this:





Me: "Mum, mum, Michael Jacksons died"


Mum: "No he hasn't"


Me: "Yes he has"


Mum: "No he hasn't"


Me: "Yes he has"


Mum: "Oh... *pause* oh no"


Me: "Night"





So my sister went home and I was left alone, with my laptop, Sky and RosieDog. So I got involved, logging on to every news website I knew, flicking through new channels and talking to friends. It seems a bit silly really, I haven't gave much thought about MJ recently, I knew he was doing a sell out 50 date tour at the 02 which caused alot of debate (again mainly over facebook) and yes I played his tunes whilst getting ready for nights out and on nights out but when it came down to it, MJ had somehow lost his magic to me.





So my first memories of the pop sensation was of course Jackson 5, although I wasn't born then I remember being taken over by the big hair, bright costumes and fascinating dance routines. These guys were awesome! They sang happy pop songs that got the feet a tapping and the song stuck in your head for the rest of the day. What more could a kid want? For me and I'm sure for many many others his Jackson 5 days and his early solo career were his finest. I can remember my Mum always saying 'he was gorgeous wasn't he, why did have to ruin himself?'. And I suppose thats what hit me the most when I heard the news, yes his personal life was a rollercoaster of babies, marriages, surgery and accusations but if you look at the music this man made... AMAZE!





Everyone has a favourite Michael Jackson song, mine has to be 1979 'Rock with You', damn that songs always puts a smile on my face and I'm always taken in my mind to the video and his cheeky smile and twinkly eyes. Fact is Michael Jackson was an amazing singer, dancer and performer. He made amazing short film videos that will go down it history. He's dabled in all kinds of genres.... Motown, Funk, Disco, Dance, RnB and Pop and made music for 30 years that has a place in everyones hearts.



So when I look back on the year I was born and the rather uneventful year it was for good news, I look into the Grammys archieves and watch MJ performing 'Man in The Mirror' and I know that at the time I was born classics such has songs like these were also born. Alot like The King Elvis Presley, Jacko has inspired SO many artists and musicians, that if this man wasn't around who knows who the music industry would have missed. So this man deserves a good send off, recognition to his musicial talent and the way he has truely changed so many peoples lives.



And lets face it, with music how it is today we'll never find a artist who will have this affect on the world as Michael Jackson did. Unfortunatly it took a tragic event to find the MJ magic again!